[Life] A month has passed. The days are shorter and the nights are colder. I long for sunrises more and more. The rain offers little comfort to me these days. When grief washes over me, sometimes I think I’m grieving more for myself than for those I love who passed away… Some days I feel so angry, I want to disappear. Other days I am well beyond worldly cares. But there are moments that I really live, when time seems to stop and nothing else matters, when I love to the tips of my fingers, to the depths of my soul. I am weak and vulnerable yet strong as I have never been before. During those days, I know my purpose. I am alive. My heart sings. I am loved. My soul dreams. I am happy. My mind is at peace and my longing is put to rest. I am home…

[College] I can’t wait to graduate, if only for the simple fact that I’d never have to see the people at the university anymore. I’m so tired of them. Most of them are superficial, self-centered brats who think the world revolves around them and some plainly don’t care, who waste their lives on nothingness. I don’t know which of the two is worse.

Live a life of no regrets, they say. Heck, what do you do when you realize that you’ve spent the last three years of your life fooling yourself? What happens when you’ve given up your dream(s)? What if you still have the chance to pursue those dreams, only you no longer want to?

But I live because I love life. I love because it is a truth that I have always known and will always know. And I will dream for there is someone who dreams with me.

[Midheaven] Still no updates. I just don’t have the time nor the creativity to work on the site. And my PC’s gone wacko. It might live for six months more at most but I’ll have to get a new one as soon as possible. >_<