Love leads to isolation

I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One.

~Seth, City of Angels

PS, I Love You…

I was approved for the 12 fanlistings I applied for (new and adopted). I have to make layouts for them as well as for those still in upcoming at Ardent. And I still have to finish my entry for the Blend contest at The Grey Havens. I’m practicing my Photoshop skills. haha. I don’t think they’re up to scratch right now… I haven’t designed anything in a while - well, except for the Jonathan Stroud fanlisting and the Noldor fanlisting. I think those two turned out okay. Even nice. What do you guys think?

Life…is pretty boring. haha. My neck’s all better. I put some ointment on it and sat still for most of the day. haha.

My sister just got home so I’m going to pester her a bit after I post this. I’m procrastinating (details under “School”).

Sammy just shoved my bedroom door open with his nose. Lazy dog. Lucky dog. The only things he worries about are food and his human “pets.” LOL. But I’ll let you in on a secret. Sam’s a real scaredycat. He’s afraid of the dark, flashlights, cellphone backlights, airplanes, etc. haha. But he’s really feisty…and he can be really annoying. He just doesn’t stop barking. *sweatdrop*

I finished Plate No. 2 (Optical Illusion) for COLREND. It’s in varying shades of red and green. 10″ x 15″ Illustration Board. Poster Colors: Red, Blue, Yellow, White. Flat Brushes: 0, 1, 2. Pointed Brush: 1.

I still have to work on Plate No. 1 (Spot Manipulation) for DESPRIN. 9″ x 12″ Sketch Pad. Graphite Pencils: F, HB. Tech Pens: 0.3, 0.8. Then I need to find 3 pieces of stone for my HARTDS1 homework - they have to stand like a segment of Stonehenge. They need to be in their natural form. We’re not supposed to alter them in any way. Gaaaaah! Oh, and I have to go shopping for the next plate for FREHAND - we’re going to do some inverted shading (we’ll be using white and brown drawing pencils to shade on gray paper).

I really, really should start working on my Spot Manipulation. I have to do it over again because I smudged one of the frames (I don’t want any points taken off on this one because it’s actually incredibly easy to do, the only thing that will probably be tiring is filling in all the spots).

*Note: I’ll scan ALL of my plates when I have free time.

I dunno why but I checked out Cecelia Ahern’s official website earlier… Good thing I did. I found out that the movie adaptation of her book PS, I Love You is in post-production. Gerard Butler will be playing Gerry Kennedy. I loved him in The Phantom of the Opera and 300 (I wasn’t a big fan of the beard though…*cough*banana*cough*). Yay! I can’t wait to see it… I loved the book… It always makes me cry (I’ve read it at least half a dozen times).

I’m flipping through the pages right now…trying to find a nice quote. *feeling choked up already*

Am I OK? I’m lots of things, Ciara. I’m lonely, I’m tired, I’m sad, I’m happy, I’m lucky, I’m unlucky; I’m a million different things every day of the week. But I suppose OK is one of them.

~Holly Kennedy (talking to her sister Ciara), PS, I Love You by Cecelia Ahern

I suppose I’m just like Holly in that sense. I miss him all the time but I’m okay. I’m trying to be brave. School helps a lot. It keeps my mind off..a lot of things. ♪ And I hate how much I love you boy… I can’t stand how much I need you… And I hate how much I love you boy… But I just can’t let you go… And I hate that I love you so… ♪

Don’t be afraid to fall in love again. Open your heart and follow where it leads you . . . and remember, shoot for the moon . . .
PS, I will always love you . . .

~Gerry Kennedy (on his last note to Holly), PS, I Love You by Cecelia Ahern

Love leads to isolation.

I know things will be fine. But I know I’ll always miss him.

I got my copy of The Children of Húrin by J.R.R. Tolkien the other day. I’m afraid to take it out of the shrink wrap and expose it to the elements. LOL. I’ll leave it in its lovely mint condition until I’m sure I can finish reading it.

I NEED to finish the books I’ve been reading alternately for the past few months. Otherwise, my reading list will just keep getting longer. I’ll probably start the His Dark Materials trilogy and the Old Kingdom series soon.

I need to find some new music. I’ll appreciate any suggestions…Artists, bands, songs..? Please? I’ve been listening to Gin Blossoms for days… AND… Look at what I’ve been listening to since last night: Air Supply - All Out Of Love | Air Supply - Every Woman in the World | Air Supply - Making Love Out Of Nothing At All | Air Supply - Two Less Lonely People In The World | Atlantic Star - Always | Don Henley & The Eagles - Heart Of The Matter (Forgiveness) | England Dan & John Ford Coley - Sad To Belong | Janet Jackson - Let’s Wait Awhile | Jesse Powell - You’re The One I Love | Lionel Richie - The Only One | Michael Bolton - Said I Loved You, But I Lied | Phil Collins & Marylin Martin - Separate Lives | Rihanna feat. Ne-Yo - Hate That I Love You. haha. Depressing.

I’ll be returning comments over the next few days but I’ll try to finish it today if I can.

My mom’s home… I’m off to have lunch.

Sammy’s making a racket. I think he’s hungry too.

I hope you guys have a great weekend!
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The Torment of Human Frustration

I think everybody should get rich and famous and do everything he ever dreamed of, so he can see that it’s not the answer.

~Unknown

This entry is overdue… I’m so sorry! I’ve been so lethargic lately. I keep falling asleep.

I’m supposed to be working on my fanlisting collective but I’ve spent most of last night on it already and I just need a break. My mom, my sister and my cousin went out to drive my dad to his friend so I’m basically home alone with our helpers and the dogs. I’m bored. Sam (our Pom-Spitz - I named him after Samwise Gamgee) is sleeping under my chair. I suppose I could drag Sammy downstairs to watch a movie in our home theater but to tell you the truth, I get a bit creeped out when I watch there alone. And Sammy’s a bit of a coward so I can’t rely on him. *sweatdrop*

I think I pulled a muscle. I was stretching and then there was this excruciating pain on the left side of my neck. Ouch! I put some ointment on it but it still hurts like….well, you know what I mean. I hope I don’t get a stiff neck.

I bought a new blouse! I don’t like shopping very much (unless I’m shopping for books) but clothes are a necessity AND I’ve lost quite a lot of blouses in the past year (in the laundry? I dunno. I get the feeling someone must have stolen most of them). Clothes/shoes/bags and other related items rarely catch my eye but when they do, I just have to buy them (provided I have the means to do so - I have excellent self-control).

My first two weeks in school was stressful. My moods kept fluctuating… There were times when I felt really good about my skills and then suddenly I’d feel incompetent. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just rusty. I haven’t drawn or painted in years. I just hope I’ll get better. I got a 94/100 on my last plate for COLREND (Color Theory and Rendering) - my professor would have given me a higher grade but she had to take points off because I’d smudged some paint all over it (my hands were shaking because I was so tired). I’ll just have to do better on the next one. I’m aiming for at least a 3.5 in all of my Design Foundation Courses. Business Mathematics wasn’t as bad as I thought it was. I’m actually enjoying it except the lectures can get a bit tiresome. And my scientific calculator finally gave up on me. I had to buy a new one (I accidentally left my old one at home - see, it still works but you have to shake it or slam it down really hard. It might be the batteries or something just came loose but I couldn’t be bothered to check it. LOL)..bye-bye allowance! I’m so grateful to my mom because she’s been so generous.

My NATSCA1 (Human Factors in Design) professor had us draw our left hand (if you’re right-handed; right hand if you’re left-handed) holding a complex object (a cellphone) to check our skill level with organic and mechanical objects. I think mine was okay. If he returns it, I’ll scan it then upload it to the MH Gallery. Then I built a pyramid model for HARTDS1 (History of Art and Design 1). I completely forgot that it needed to have a corbelled ceiling so I glued the ceiling together. Ack. Got points taken off again. *sigh… And I worked really hard on it too. I was even planning to glaze it over with sand but I couldn’t find any so I settled for paint. We drew one of Fernando Amorsolo’s pen-and-ink drawings (untitled) upside-down in FREHAND (Freehand Drawing). The woman in my drawing looked like a hunchback. eep! But I guess it’s pretty understandable because most of my other classmates had the same problem. Still, I’m really frustrated about my work for the past two weeks.

I still have two plates to work on… for FREHAND - it’s more of a drawing exercise - and for DESPRIN (Principles of Art and Design) - we’re working on the different elements of design; the first plate is on spots. I’ll scan them when I’m done.

Long-Distance Relationships. This is a popular topic in one of the message boards I frequent.

Half my days I cannot bear not to touch you, the rest of the time I feel it doesn’t matter if I ever see you again. It isn’t the mortality, it is how much you can bear…

~The English Patient

What do you guys think about it? Have you ever been in a LDR? If yes, did it work out? If it didn’t, why did it fail?

I watched Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End with my sister last 01 June 2007, Friday. hehe. ♥ Johnny Depp ♥ Enough said. Did you guys see the easter egg (the ten years later bit)? I’m frustrated with what happened to Will Turner. But I still think it was a great ending.

I keep wanting to sing, ♪ Yo Ho (A Pirate’s Life for Me) ♪ - nyahaha!

We’re rascals, scoundrels, villans and knaves. Drink up me ‘earties, yo ho! We’re devils and black sheep, really bad eggs! Drink up me ‘earties, yo ho! Yo ho, yo ho! A pirate’s life for me.

I want to thank Simply Precious, Pat, Anna, Raymond, Monica, Denise, Ashley, Lily, Eja, Teelia, Kiritsubo, Matt, Carrie Szczepanski, Wattle, fruityoaty, Niki, Ramsha, Chette, Fer, Trixie, Kimberly, Amy, Lil, Frutee, Nan, Sami, Lucy, Renee, Marsha, and Sarah for commenting on Four Walls, Two Windows. Sadly, I don’t have the time (or energy) to respond to all of the previous comments individually… I’ve picked out a few to respond to (I’ll probably do that from now on because my plates for my art/design courses - as well as sleep - take up most of my time now).

First, about surgery/physical therapy - I’ll have to get back to you on that. I don’t have therapy sessions yet but I’ll ask my doctor about it.

About the books I just bought (Anna) - I don’t think I’ll be able to finish them in the near future. *sigh… I never seem to have time to read these days… I miss spending the day curled up on my couch or my bed with a good book.

Teelia, oh! I’m not married! I doubt I’d get married anytime soon… I feel like I’m too young… haha. But if I find the right person for me, then why not?

fruityoaty, gaaah! I know what you mean. It’s probably why I have scoliosis in the first place. My bag was always HEAVY. I’m trying to bring less stuff to school but with all the art materials I need for my drawing/sketching/painting, I can’t leave most of them behind.

Niki!!! I miss you dearie…

So, that’s it for today! I’ll leave you guys with another quote:

People need trouble — a little frustration to sharpen the spirit on, toughen it. Artists do; I don’t mean you need to live in a rat hole or gutter, but you have to learn fortitude, endurance. Only vegetables are happy.

~William Faulkner

Oh, and before I forget - I’ve posted a new entry in my private blog. Updates on The Foreigner so check it out if you have access to Everywhen.