Transient Dreams

Let the light pierce through the darkness Close all old accounts, turn a new leaf Re-learn that old lesson of friendship Kill nor be killed, settle for lessening Amidst us of this fossilized hatred

Transient Dreams

glimpses of life… silence and chaos; laughter and tears…

Perhaps that time has not come yet when our, Gods would listen to the beats in our hearts, peace and happiness spread their glow, perhaps we would have to force Mother Time?.

The Torment of Human Frustration

I think everybody should get rich and famous and do everything he ever dreamed of, so he can see that it’s not the answer.
~Unknown

This entry is overdue… I’m so sorry! I’ve been so lethargic lately. I keep falling asleep.

I’m supposed to be working on my fanlisting collective but I’ve spent most of last night on it already and I just need a break. My mom, my sister and my cousin went out to drive my dad to his friend so I’m basically home alone with our helpers and the dogs. I’m bored. Sam (our Pom-Spitz - I named him after Samwise Gamgee) is sleeping under my chair. I suppose I could drag Sammy downstairs to watch a movie in our home theater but to tell you the truth, I get a bit creeped out when I watch there alone. And Sammy’s a bit of a coward so I can’t rely on him. *sweatdrop*

I think I pulled a muscle. I was stretching and then there was this excruciating pain on the left side of my neck. Ouch! I put some ointment on it but it still hurts like….well, you know what I mean. I hope I don’t get a stiff neck.

I bought a new blouse! I don’t like shopping very much (unless I’m shopping for books) but clothes are a necessity AND I’ve lost quite a lot of blouses in the past year (in the laundry? I dunno. I get the feeling someone must have stolen most of them). Clothes/shoes/bags and other related items rarely catch my eye but when they do, I just have to buy them (provided I have the means to do so - I have excellent self-control).

My first two weeks in school was stressful. My moods kept fluctuating… There were times when I felt really good about my skills and then suddenly I’d feel incompetent. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just rusty. I haven’t drawn or painted in years. I just hope I’ll get better. I got a 94/100 on my last plate for COLREND (Color Theory and Rendering) - my professor would have given me a higher grade but she had to take points off because I’d smudged some paint all over it (my hands were shaking because I was so tired). I’ll just have to do better on the next one. I’m aiming for at least a 3.5 in all of my Design Foundation Courses. Business Mathematics wasn’t as bad as I thought it was. I’m actually enjoying it except the lectures can get a bit tiresome. And my scientific calculator finally gave up on me. I had to buy a new one (I accidentally left my old one at home - see, it still works but you have to shake it or slam it down really hard. It might be the batteries or something just came loose but I couldn’t be bothered to check it. LOL)..bye-bye allowance! I’m so grateful to my mom because she’s been so generous.

My NATSCA1 (Human Factors in Design) professor had us draw our left hand (if you’re right-handed; right hand if you’re left-handed) holding a complex object (a cellphone) to check our skill level with organic and mechanical objects. I think mine was okay. If he returns it, I’ll scan it then upload it to the MH Gallery. Then I built a pyramid model for HARTDS1 (History of Art and Design 1). I completely forgot that it needed to have a corbelled ceiling so I glued the ceiling together. Ack. Got points taken off again. *sigh… And I worked really hard on it too. I was even planning to glaze it over with sand but I couldn’t find any so I settled for paint. We drew one of Fernando Amorsolo’s pen-and-ink drawings (untitled) upside-down in FREHAND (Freehand Drawing). The woman in my drawing looked like a hunchback. eep! But I guess it’s pretty understandable because most of my other classmates had the same problem. Still, I’m really frustrated about my work for the past two weeks.

I still have two plates to work on… for FREHAND - it’s more of a drawing exercise - and for DESPRIN (Principles of Art and Design) - we’re working on the different elements of design; the first plate is on spots. I’ll scan them when I’m done.

Long-Distance Relationships. This is a popular topic in one of the message boards I frequent.

Half my days I cannot bear not to touch you, the rest of the time I feel it doesn’t matter if I ever see you again. It isn’t the mortality, it is how much you can bear…
~The English Patient

What do you guys think about it? Have you ever been in a LDR? If yes, did it work out? If it didn’t, why did it fail?

I watched Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End with my sister last 01 June 2007, Friday. hehe. ♥ Johnny Depp ♥ Enough said. Did you guys see the easter egg (the ten years later bit)? I’m frustrated with what happened to Will Turner. But I still think it was a great ending.

I keep wanting to sing, ♪ Yo Ho (A Pirate’s Life for Me) ♪ - nyahaha!

We’re rascals, scoundrels, villans and knaves. Drink up me ‘earties, yo ho! We’re devils and black sheep, really bad eggs! Drink up me ‘earties, yo ho! Yo ho, yo ho! A pirate’s life for me.

I want to thank Simply Precious, Pat, Anna, Raymond, Monica, Denise, Ashley, Lily, Eja, Teelia, Kiritsubo, Matt, Carrie Szczepanski, Wattle, fruityoaty, Niki, Ramsha, Chette, Fer, Trixie, Kimberly, Amy, Lil, Frutee, Nan, Sami, Lucy, Renee, Marsha, and Sarah for commenting on Four Walls, Two Windows. Sadly, I don’t have the time (or energy) to respond to all of the previous comments individually… I’ve picked out a few to respond to (I’ll probably do that from now on because my plates for my art/design courses - as well as sleep - take up most of my time now).

First, about surgery/physical therapy - I’ll have to get back to you on that. I don’t have therapy sessions yet but I’ll ask my doctor about it.

About the books I just bought (Anna) - I don’t think I’ll be able to finish them in the near future. *sigh… I never seem to have time to read these days… I miss spending the day curled up on my couch or my bed with a good book.

Teelia, oh! I’m not married! I doubt I’d get married anytime soon… I feel like I’m too young… haha. But if I find the right person for me, then why not?

fruityoaty, gaaah! I know what you mean. It’s probably why I have scoliosis in the first place. My bag was always HEAVY. I’m trying to bring less stuff to school but with all the art materials I need for my drawing/sketching/painting, I can’t leave most of them behind.

Niki!!! I miss you dearie…

So, that’s it for today! I’ll leave you guys with another quote:

People need trouble — a little frustration to sharpen the spirit on, toughen it. Artists do; I don’t mean you need to live in a rat hole or gutter, but you have to learn fortitude, endurance. Only vegetables are happy.
~William Faulkner

Oh, and before I forget - I’ve posted a new entry in my private blog. Updates on The Foreigner so check it out if you have access to Everywhen.

09 Jun 07 | Tags: fanlistings, health, Johnny Depp, long distance relationship, love, movie easter egg, Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End, shopping, shout-outs, Yo Ho (A Pirate's Life for Me)
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8 Responses to “The Torment of Human Frustration”

Simply Precious | June 10th, 2007 at 12:36:43 am

Sorry to hear that you’ve pulled a muscle! I’m sooooo sore right now also!!! =(

Hehe, that’s awesome that you bought a new blouse! Hmm, I go shopping a lot… Just window shopping… Hahah…

Sorry to hear about school! =( GOOD LUCK!!! 3.5 is sooo hard for me to get!

Anyways, about long distance relationships… I have nooo idea about that… I’d think they’d work, but I think it depends on the situation…
fruityoaty | June 10th, 2007 at 11:24:39 am

Hey girl. I feel honoured that my last comment was one of the ones chosen to be answered. :D I must say, I do like visiting your site. I do enjoy reading stuff by “visual arts-minded” people.

… I did something similar like that once in school… drawing with my left hand because our art instructor told us to do so. Plus, we had to draw with our eyes closed… something about practising the artist’s “inner eye”, literally LOL.

… pulled muscle? Oh… hope ya feel better soon. Alright, I’ll be back another day. L8tr days!
Je | June 10th, 2007 at 1:35:41 pm

yay for my fellow-art student!!! ^_^ welcome to the very stressful, busy but VERY FUN world of an art major! :D hehehe.
Anna | June 11th, 2007 at 8:13:52 pm

I have never lost any clothes in the laundry, yet, but alot of them have shrunk. Oh what the hell. If I had the money I would buy new clothes everyday!

POTC was so good. I downloaded the soundtrack and I listen to the title track, “Drink Me Up Hearties”, when I wake up and just before I get into bed. I’m addicted to it.

Wow, that sounds like alot of work. I don’t think I could handle it. I have assignments for the next three days that I haven’t even started working on. It’s driving me insane. I’m sure you’ll do fine and I’m sure I will be inspired by you to work on mine as well.
Shelly | June 14th, 2007 at 8:36:28 am

Ah, your posts are so full of quotes. =) I really like that first one though, very twisted? Hehe, it’s clever. And thanks for the reassurance. I got my root canal yesterday and it’s been pretty ok. I can’t open my mouth really wide because I think my gums/jaw is just sore from all the shots/needles they stuck in to get it numb. I’ve got a gazillion pain killers though, so I think I’m set and ready to go? =)

I hope you didn’t pull a muscle though, especially in your neck? Ouch. My neck has been throbbing for the last couple days as well, but that’s only because I did a bungee jump game and I think it’s just sore. It’s been getting better now, so I hope that your neck heals up fast too. ^^

And wow, you’re starting school? That’s so odd…please stay strong and don’t stress yourself out that much. I’m sure you’re performance in your work is amazing, and yes, please do post up that picture when your teacher hands it back to you. I’d really like to see it! Hehe, I’d never be able to do an assignment like that, but then again, that’s why I’m not majoring in anything artistic. =P

Oh yes, Pirates of the Caribbean! LOVE LOVE LOVE! My most favorite trilogy in the woooo~rld! I just watched the third movie and it’s just so awesome. I can’t believe it’s over though. I really want them to do more to it — but there’s always the thought that if they keep going with the series, it’ll ruin it. So I guess for now, I’ll just collect the DVDs and rewatch them to my heart’s content. =P
Anjela | June 15th, 2007 at 10:43:54 am

well, my boyfriend and I live about an hour from each other. which isn’t really long distance, but it still isn’t easy to spend time together. but I suppose it is working out because we’ve been together for over two years now.

I wish I was artistic enough to take art classes. But I have not an artistic bone in my body. That said, I’ve found a newfound interest in learning how to sew, so I may channel my creativity into that. I like designing stuff, but as I can’t draw I can’t express it. I’ve always wondering if one can learn to draw, like they could learn to sew. But I doubt it.

I haven’t seen the third Pirates movie yet. I was disappointed by the second one. So I’m not sure if I’ll go see it. I may just wait for the DVD, even though most of the reviews I’ve read say that the third is better than the second.
Kahea | June 15th, 2007 at 4:40:28 pm

O_O your classes sound fun! I can’t wait to get out of high school, lol. The only cool art classes my high school offers are ‘drawing and painting’ and ‘design and illustration’ and I think they’re ok but I’m looking for more specific classes, lol xD

I cannot stand spending my money! Hehe… I’m reasonable when it comes to buying what I need, but…. -shiver- you’ll never catch my buying clothes unless they’re from some outlet store or the salvation army or Ross’, lol. I’m a total bargain shopper xD

And I enjoyed POTC, but man it was long! hehe. And Elizabeth Swan just bugs me. Not only is she just…. annoying, but shesh, keira knightley’s eyebrows were bugging me the whole time! Nobody else ever seems to notice what I’m talking about, but I hate how dark her eyebrows are in comparison to her skin tone… and her hair… and… >_
Cherrie | June 16th, 2007 at 11:33:18 am

how’s school? i sure hope you don’t stretch yourself that much… learn to relax.. and with the stretched muscle, well, i’m not sure as to what remedy you have to apply to that except that use a cold compress.. anyway, goodluck and i hope you make it through your masters degree.

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