Hey guys… I just wanted to let you all know that I might not be around for a while and I might have to take my blog off commenting rotations. I’m going to concentrate on schoolwork. I need to figure out some things. I talked to my mom again about maybe not finishing my second degree. I’ve been thinking about it since last term… I get all these questions from my classmates about why I’m studying again, if I ever get tired of studying, what am I going to do after I graduate again, etc. I’m not exactly sure what to tell them.

My brother offered to take me to school this Wednesday. I think he just wants to talk to me about it. I still have over two months to decide whether I’m going to stay in school or start working — so much for not pursuing a career in Psychology. We’ll see.

“I believe if there’s any kind of God it wouldn’t be in any of us, not you or me but just this little space in between. If there’s any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone sharing something. I know, it’s almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt.” ~Celine, Before Sunrise (1995)

I got a message from one of my college friends (from DLSU-M) about something we’d planned a few years ago. She’s thinking of finally going through with it. We still have to brainstorm… I’m going to call her on Wednesday when I get home from my PROFES1 class. I’ll let you know how it turns out.

Well..I’m off to draw for a while. I need to clear my head.

You know where to find me if you need to contact me.

Oh BTW, the password-protected post below has the same password as the previous ones.

Please do not republish the following poem in any form (electronic or print).

ADRIFT
I watch the rain pouring down
Resting my head against the windowpane
All I feel is bitter coldness
Darkness and despair
Life is almost always unfair
Disappointment rings in my ears
Love is almost always unrequited
Footsteps resound against the walls
Friends are almost always never there
Tacit bonds fade into the mist
They´re just out there to harm you
I hear music playing in the background
It´s hard to understand
Spent all my time trying
Laying it on the line
I´ve lost my every dream
And found it´s a bit like losing
A fragment of my soul
No one ever really loved enough to care
I´m just thankful for the time
Walking along dimly lit streets
Searching for familiar faces
Looking for a home
My fears are subsiding
But I´m lost and all alone
I don´t know who I am
It´s difficult to love me
I have a need to be on my own
I lift my face up to the sky
And there´s nothing but the rain.

© 2003 Fatima Niosco
Published in Igneus Animi, the Official 2003 Literary Folio of LCC-P