Before anything else, I’d like to say that I love my life and I wouldn’t trade one bit of it for anything I had in the past. 
asked me if I felt any older after my birthday. I told him I didn’t but I thought about it again…
I suppose I do feel older somehow. 
Mostly because I’ve learned more about life and how things work but also because I’ve accepted the fact that even if I’d known these things before, I probably would have made the same mistakes — which isn’t so bad because I look at who I am now and I know I’ve become a really good person.
There was a time when I felt like I wasn’t doing anything good with my life; like I had no direction whatsoever. I felt like I was just taking up space. But my attitude towards life has changed a lot since then. Young people always think they’re invincible — like they’re going to live forever — but over the years, I’ve become increasingly aware of human mortality. I like to think that I’m living the life I want, doing what I want to do, and making sure I’m doing everything necessary to accomplish my goals. But I also know that doesn’t really make me better than other people, it’s just that I try harder.
And then I think about . He reinforces my belief in the things I’ve always loved about life. I’ve always thought that we’re here to make a difference, to make the world a better place for future generations. He has taught me a lot… I don’t think I could ever be brave enough to do the things he’s done (and is still doing) but I do what I can in my own little ways. I can look people straight in the eye and tell them that I’m genuinely interested in who they are and what they have to say. I know I’ve made a difference in a lot of people’s lives that way. We tend to sell ourselves short; put ourselves down…but I try to build people up. No, I don’t make them think they’re better than they actually are… I just help them see themselves through my eyes. I have an uncanny ability to see the good in others, no matter how dark and twisted they may seem 
— I don’t think it makes me naive, just open-minded. Contrary to what my Philosophy professor1 used to tell us, objectivity is possible!!! It depends on the person’s integrity and conscience.
The pursuit of happiness is not futile. I think happiness finds you (not the other way around) when you start making sincere efforts to become the best person you can be.
And lastly, although turning 21 is not as “magical” as some people make it out to be, I still enjoyed it!
*NOTE:
I’d like to stress that just because you’ve read my blog, talked to me online or seen what I look like doesn’t mean you actually know me. Even though I write about personal stuff here, I tend to forget or omit certain details.
So there… I have to go get ready — another busy day for me. I’m going to the LTO to get my learner’s permit (after FIVE years of wanting to learn how to drive, I finally have time!!!), drop off my goddaughter/cousin, run errands with my mom (bank, grocery, etc.) then maybe do some shopping — we haven’t done that in a long while and I need to find out what my mom wants for Mother’s Day.
- I have nothing against him. In fact, I actually like him. Though he made life a bit harder for me and my classmates, we all learned a lot from him. ↩
It’s good you take the time to relfect on your life. That’s the way to do it.. otherwise you’d never grow.
Happy belated birthday.
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I feel the same way, recently turned 20 on the 3rd. I thought I was just gunna go onto this downward spiral into nothing, but I picked myself up and did something about it!!
I still gotta find time to get my permit and such. >< oii.
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I don’t have a lot of patience to deal with most people. I’m more of an animal person.
I didn’t feel older after my 21st birthday, just a bit wiser.
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Aww, that’s soo great to hear about all of the stuff you’ve learned and your whole outlook on life! =) Hehe about that whole “note” at the end, yep, I know what you mean because I don’t say certain things either. I actually have a handful of people online that knows pretty much EVERYTHING that goes on in my life, but that’s pretty much it. Hehe…
Oh wow, good luck with getting your learner’s permit!!
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Happy belated birthday
Its good to know that you feel like you have grown, I feel the same as I did when I was 14 and I’m almost 18 which is scary.
Good luck with your driving
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Aww – I wanted to comment on your newer entry but since it’s password protected I can’t. Bummer.
Anyhoo, happy belated birthday! It sounds like you had a great day. I agree that turning 21 isn’t nearly as amazing and life-affirming as people make it out to be. I suppose being 21 is better than being 18. *lol*
x despair
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I think we all go through that at one point or another.What changed me was getting pregnant at 24 and being a mom at 25.I think it is weird how you meet someone and fall for him and they teach you so much.I know the man I am with has taught me so much.I hope your mom had a good mother’s day.
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Exactly the way I feel
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And I really, really like your smilie set, especially :artistic:. Haha. I’m such a sucker for small, cute smilies.
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As this is your most recent public entry, I will say Happy Belated Birthday. I can’t really say that I have ever felt older or younger on a birthday, but it is a good time to reflect.
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Yay for turning 21! Everyone seems to be turning 21 lately! I feel young, haha!
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Happy birthday! My 21st was uneventful, I’m not sure what kind of knowledge you’re supposed to gain from a birthday though lol.
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Happy belated birthday
sorry for being late for your birthday wishes. Anyway, you’ve written a very meaningful post up there – I have exactly the same feeling about how we should treat people – with love, care and not hatred or disgust. I like helping others, but I don’t want to be like some big hero or philanthropist – the reason why I enjoy lending others a helping hand is that everyone deserves to live each day happily as they’ve wished to. Nobody deserves to be in pain, no matter whether is it in the physical or emotional aspect.
Like the popular saying goes, live everyday like it’s your last. That’s how I find happiness.
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