Transient Dreams

Let the light pierce through the darkness Close all old accounts, turn a new leaf Re-learn that old lesson of friendship Kill nor be killed, settle for lessening Amidst us of this fossilized hatred

Transient Dreams

glimpses of life… silence and chaos; laughter and tears…

Perhaps that time has not come yet when our, Gods would listen to the beats in our hearts, peace and happiness spread their glow, perhaps we would have to force Mother Time?.

I miss my Jim

“When you were around I had a sense of security in feeling that I could just pick up the telephone and talk with you. I know now that I miss you as one who has lost his sight will always miss the light. So I now feel this overwhelming sense of loss.” ~Luis Asperri, My Brother, My Executioner by F. Sionil José

I had a wonderful week with Jim. I am trying my best not to be sad.

After we dropped him off at the airport yesterday, I tried not to think about him and took a nap in the car. When we got home, I went straight to my room and wrote him an email. I missed him so much. I didn’t want to stay home so I went to church with my mom and my brother then to Shangri-La. I sat in the car, thinking about how just a few hours ago, he was right there beside me, holding my hand. When we got to Shang, I thought I saw a glimpse of him..crazy, right? I almost laughed. We met up with my sister then ate McDonald’s on the way home. Gaaah… I missed him even more. I would give anything just to be near him again.

Today was the first day I woke up knowing that I wouldn’t be able to see him, talk to him, touch him…at least not for a few months. I miss his smile, his voice, his laugh… I miss looking into his eyes… He makes me feel so at peace. I can’t remember feeling so happy…

I am hoping that the next months will fly by… I can’t wait to see him again.

*sigh…

29 Jun 08 | Tags: F. Sionil José, Jim, long distance relationship
| Relationships

7 Responses to “I miss my Jim”

reina | June 29th, 2008 at 7:14:47 pm

man i know that id be acting the same way. Hopefully the time will go by so fast & sometimes its nice to miss someone because when you see them again its such an amazing feeling. Like your heart starts racing and you cant help but to smile? well at least for me thats how it is. Its great that youv found someone who makes you happy.
Simply Precious | June 30th, 2008 at 3:30:17 am

Yeah, I know what you mean, and yep, I know what you mean about thinking that you caught a glimpse of him. I’m happy that you found someone, Fatima!
Sarah | June 30th, 2008 at 6:54:11 am

I’m so glad you had such a great time with Jim your pictures together are so adorable. I know it’s difficult not to feel sad… I hope the next few months will fly by for you!
Vickie | June 30th, 2008 at 4:45:10 pm

Awwwww… but with the short(?) break, the two of you will treasure each other even more. Hope the next few months would fly by for you both!
Emma | July 1st, 2008 at 6:50:23 pm

I hope those months go quickly for you. I’m sure he is missing you as much as your missing him.
Angela | July 2nd, 2008 at 2:19:09 am

Just try to keep yourself busy, and hopefully the time will go by fast.
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Nicky | July 2nd, 2008 at 6:00:32 am

Awh. I understand that you miss him very much. Hopefully these months will quickly past so you two will be able to see each other again.

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