I’m starting to feel silly about that last protected post. Sarah was probably the only one who read it but…hahaha. I can’t believe I went through with it. It was a birthday gift that was also sort of a dare.

Anyway, I started writing this entry two days ago (before the protected post) but ended up rewriting it a couple of times. I figured no one wanted to hear about how sad I’ve been feeling lately. LOL. Besides, it comes and goes. If you ask me how I’m feeling right now, I’d still say I’m happy. I have Jim to thank for that.

A friend of mine shared something with me a few weeks ago — stuff about breaking up, letting go and moving on. I thought I’d blog about it because Jim told me something yesterday that reminded me of it — mind you, this is unrelated and is actually about someone my friend and I knew in college, let’s call her Kate (because I don’t have any friends named Kate).

And by Charlie, I mean my sister Leslee. Because she loves Charlie — as in Charlie Brown in Peanuts. I like Lucy van Pelt but they say I’m more like Sally Brown. Maybe that’s because one of my favorite comic strips is when Sally goes to wake up Charlie, “I hate to tell you but it’s time to get up, Charlie Brown.” Then Charlie says, “If you hate to tell me then why do you tell me?” Sally replies, “Because I really love to tell you…” and heads out the door. Oh okay, I get it because I can be stubborn like her. But she has a good heart.

Anyway…

I had a funny conversation with my sister last Sunday — about sex. I can’t post the details here because one of my goddaughters (I have two, and one godson) recently discovered my blog and I’d rather not be the one to pollute her innocent mind. It started when we went grocery shopping and bought some chips — think of the Pringles slogan. I kept telling her that “there’s no such thing as bad habits, only vices” and she said, “yun ang pinakamasarap na bish,¹ *insert Pringles slogan here*” — something like that.

I’ve been talking to my friends a lot for the past few days. Especially my MMA buddies. Psyche txts me now and then about software — I promised to help her as much as I could even though I’m on leave (and probably won’t be coming back). I can answer her questions about Photoshop but I don’t know anything about Maya! I watched some of the ABS-CBN animators work during my OJT but I was too shy (then) to sit down and tinker around with them even when the person in charge of the workshop (training) said I could. pfft.

I’ve also been catching up with Dol (Niñ’s ex). Who would’ve thought we had so much in common?!

I wanted to visit my cousins in the hospital earlier. Bennyppe has an abdominal infection and might need surgery. Janz has Dengue and might need platelet transfusion. My mom wouldn’t let me go because I had Dengue fever syndrome back in high school - it’s not contagious by human contact (transmission is by man » mosquito » man) but my mom doesn’t want to take chances. I know my cousin’s in a lot of pain. I remember when I got sick, I was in the hospital for a whole week and couldn’t move - it hurt all over. Every test they did felt a hundred times worse than usual. I thought I was going to die..I felt so cold but I was lucky, my symptoms were actually mild compared to most cases. My cousin probably feels much, much worse than I did then.

EDIT, 8:16 am
Bennyppe’s going to need surgery. They found a cyst in one of her ovaries. And her uterus and fallopian tubes have been affected too. We’re still waiting for other test results. I don’t think they have the results of the CT scan of her abdomen yet.

I have two new hostees! Please welcome Sarah Marie and Joey to the Midheaven Family!

“All this time I’ve been without someone like you / Now that you’re here, I’ve got someone to run to / Someone like you… / And if I had only one wish…”

I promised not to let my fears have me doubting. I’m doing my best to shrug them off because right now, things couldn’t get much better than they already are. But sometimes…

It’s been raining really hard since last night. Hmmn… I’ve always loved the rain — especially when we were still living in Laguna (but only when I’m inside the house). It’s beautiful. Sammy (my mom’s Pom-Spitz) hates the rain though. I don’t think he got much sleep last night.

I used to love taking walks right after it rained but here in Pasig, it’s not such a good idea.

I’m chatting on Y!M with my Aunt Joy (my mom’s only sister) right now. haha, she’s showing me the bridesmaid dresses she’s sewing for her brother-in-law’s wedding on her webcam. She’s trying to convince me to buy a webcam. She wants to be able to see me when we chat so she won’t miss me so much anymore.

I spent the afternoons of the past weekend with my dad and my sister in our music room/home theater. My dad has an incredible home audio playback system installed right now — from the Burmester Top Line. I can only imagine what the Reference Line sounds like!

When you listen to music, you can hear everything, no distortion whatsoever! I wholeheartedly agree with Burmester’s slogan, “Art for the Ear.” It’s only on demo so we can enjoy it for about 3 weeks BUT my dad wants to have them picked up now because he might get used to it and he’d never want to go back to his old setup. And the loudspeakers alone cost about $20,000 each (list price is about $25,000, I think)!

My cousin Benette is still sick and the doctors don’t know what’s wrong with her. She’s had a fever for 8 days now! One said it was a “systemic viral illness” and prescribed antibiotics. Another had her tested for Typhoid fever and a whole bunch of other illnesses. We’ll find out the results in a few days. And I just found out that one of my other cousins is sick too. My mom said, “that’s everyone close to you.” Oh yeah, as if I made them sick!

Oh, I almost forgot! It’s my parents’ wedding anniversary today. And they started the day off by fighting. *sigh… Oh, please take me away from here!

Okay, I have to go! I just found out from my aunt that I was supposed to see her today — you’d think my mom would tell me these things before she goes ahead and plans my day right?! I don’t really mind though because she doesn’t do it often and ONLY when she knows I’m not that busy. Anyway, I need to help my mom with a lot of stuff today. Plus, we’re going to have lunch with my favorite brother (hehe, the only one I have) and he’s been really grumpy so… Bye!!!