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Love leads to isolation

I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One.

~Seth, City of Angels

PS, I Love You…

I was approved for the 12 fanlistings I applied for (new and adopted). I have to make layouts for them as well as for those still in upcoming at Ardent. :stressed: And I still have to finish my entry for the Blend contest at The Grey Havens. I’m practicing my Photoshop skills. haha. I don’t think they’re up to scratch right now… I haven’t designed anything in a while – well, except for the Jonathan Stroud fanlisting and the Noldor fanlisting. I think those two turned out okay. Even nice. ;) What do you guys think?

Life…is pretty boring. haha. My neck’s all better. I put some ointment on it and sat still for most of the day. haha.

My sister just got home so I’m going to pester her a bit after I post this. I’m procrastinating (details under “School”).

Sammy just shoved my bedroom door open with his nose. Lazy dog. Lucky dog. The only things he worries about are food and his human “pets.” LOL. But I’ll let you in on a secret. Sam’s a real scaredycat. He’s afraid of the dark, flashlights, cellphone backlights, airplanes, etc. haha. But he’s really feisty…and he can be really annoying. He just doesn’t stop barking. *sweatdrop*

I finished Plate No. 2 (Optical Illusion) for COLREND. :artistic: It’s in varying shades of red and green. 10″ x 15″ Illustration Board. Poster Colors: Red, Blue, Yellow, White. Flat Brushes: 0, 1, 2. Pointed Brush: 1.

I still have to work on Plate No. 1 (Spot Manipulation) for DESPRIN. 9″ x 12″ Sketch Pad. Graphite Pencils: F, HB. Tech Pens: 0.3, 0.8. Then I need to find 3 pieces of stone for my HARTDS1 homework – they have to stand like a segment of Stonehenge. They need to be in their natural form. We’re not supposed to alter them in any way. Gaaaaah! Oh, and I have to go shopping for the next plate for FREHAND – we’re going to do some inverted shading (we’ll be using white and brown drawing pencils to shade on gray paper).

I really, really should start working on my Spot Manipulation. I have to do it over again because I smudged one of the frames (I don’t want any points taken off on this one because it’s actually incredibly easy to do, the only thing that will probably be tiring is filling in all the spots).

*Note: I’ll scan ALL of my plates when I have free time. ;)

I dunno why but I checked out Cecelia Ahern’s official website earlier… Good thing I did. I found out that the movie adaptation of her book PS, I Love You is in post-production. Gerard Butler will be playing Gerry Kennedy. I loved him in The Phantom of the Opera and 300 (I wasn’t a big fan of the beard though…*cough*banana*cough*). Yay! I can’t wait to see it… I loved the book… It always makes me cry (I’ve read it at least half a dozen times).

I’m flipping through the pages right now…trying to find a nice quote. *feeling choked up already*

Am I OK? I’m lots of things, Ciara. I’m lonely, I’m tired, I’m sad, I’m happy, I’m lucky, I’m unlucky; I’m a million different things every day of the week. But I suppose OK is one of them.

~Holly Kennedy (talking to her sister Ciara), PS, I Love You by Cecelia Ahern

I suppose I’m just like Holly in that sense. I miss him all the time but I’m okay. I’m trying to be brave. School helps a lot. It keeps my mind off..a lot of things. ♪ And I hate how much I love you boy… I can’t stand how much I need you… And I hate how much I love you boy… But I just can’t let you go… And I hate that I love you so…

Don’t be afraid to fall in love again. Open your heart and follow where it leads you . . . and remember, shoot for the moon . . .
PS, I will always love you . . .

~Gerry Kennedy (on his last note to Holly), PS, I Love You by Cecelia Ahern

:eyescry:

Love leads to isolation. :(

I know things will be fine. But I know I’ll always miss him.

I got my copy of The Children of Húrin by J.R.R. Tolkien the other day. :bouncy: I’m afraid to take it out of the shrink wrap and expose it to the elements. LOL. I’ll leave it in its lovely mint condition until I’m sure I can finish reading it.

I NEED to finish the books I’ve been reading alternately for the past few months. Otherwise, my reading list will just keep getting longer. I’ll probably start the His Dark Materials trilogy and the Old Kingdom series soon.

I need to find some new music. I’ll appreciate any suggestions…Artists, bands, songs..? Please? I’ve been listening to Gin Blossoms for days… AND… Look at what I’ve been listening to since last night: Air Supply – All Out Of Love | Air Supply – Every Woman in the World | Air Supply – Making Love Out Of Nothing At All | Air Supply – Two Less Lonely People In The World | Atlantic Star – Always | Don Henley & The Eagles – Heart Of The Matter (Forgiveness) | England Dan & John Ford Coley – Sad To Belong | Janet Jackson – Let’s Wait Awhile | Jesse Powell – You’re The One I Love | Lionel Richie – The Only One | Michael Bolton – Said I Loved You, But I Lied | Phil Collins & Marylin Martin – Separate Lives | Rihanna feat. Ne-Yo – Hate That I Love You. haha. Depressing.

I’ll be returning comments over the next few days but I’ll try to finish it today if I can. ;)

My mom’s home… I’m off to have lunch.

Sammy’s making a racket. I think he’s hungry too.

I hope you guys have a great weekend!
Stay safe, m’kay?!

Seriously!

Treat everyone with kindness, even those who are rude to you, not because they are not nice but because you are nice.

~Unknown

Hmmn… So many things have happened. I don’t know where to start. :confused:

CuteNews seems to be working fine for me. I’m using it on another site. I’m not planning to switch my blog from WordPress to CuteNews so don’t worry. hehe. I love WordPress. :heart: Oh, I’ve just noticed – I’ve been getting more spam ever since I changed Transient Dreams’ privacy settings. Moonlight Reverie has been revamped. I’ve been helping Monica with 742, Epic and Legend. I’ve also been working on the Midheaven Archives, aka The Midheaven Library so please check it out when you have time. I’ve acquired some new books. I still have hundreds of books, DVDs and CDs to list though. :weird:

Aside from that, I’ve just been playing TCGs. :) I’m concentrating on The Grey Havens because the War of the Ring (it’s a monthly game at GH) is almost over. I’ve made all the donations I can make for this month (8 link buttons, 4 master badges, 18 level badges, 1 deck images donation – I still have one more to complete) and entered two of the three ongoing contests. Lookie:

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You may use the two avatars I made but please be sure to credit me. I’m still thinking about whether or not to enter the last contest (blends). I’ll have to see whether my team is ahead. hehe. I want to win! ;)

I mentioned the irresponsible/unreliable buyer in my previous post right? Well, everything worked out. I contacted the people who’ve bought stuff from me before and they’re interested in purchasing the boxsets. *whew. Plus, it looks like the people who’ve borrowed a significant (meaning HUGE) amount of money from me will be returning MOST if not all of it soon. Yay!

And about my entrance exam results… I’ve been putting off blogging because I didn’t want to jinx it. Well… I PASSED! I PASSED! I PASSED! LOL. I had a bit of a scare when I went to confirm my enrollment though. When they released my exam results, they couldn’t find my flowchart. I thought that meant that I didn’t pass but it turned out that they weren’t finished crediting my subjects. Anyway, I got my flowchart last Monday during enrollment confirmation and all of my minor subjects were credited. I still have to take a few subjects that I didn’t have in my flowchart for my BS Psychology degree but it’s all good – well, except for Business Math. I thought I’d never have to take Math again. :p haha! So here’s the list of subjects that I’ll be taking for the next..uh, two years – I think.

GENERAL EDUCATION SUBJECTS
I’m planning to take all of them in my first term. If that’s not possible, I’ll spread them out in my first two terms.
NATSCA1 – Human Factors in Design (I think I’m going to like this)
PEONEPF – Physical Fitness (gaaaah! I thought I wouldn’t have to a P.E. class again!)
BMAT2-X – Business Mathematics 2 *conducted as an extended class of 4.5 hours a week (*sigh…)
PHILOMA – Philosophy of Man (yay! I always wanted to take a Philo course. I only had Critical Thinking.)
HARTDS1 – History of Art and Design 1 (I think this is going to be interesting)
NATSCA2 – Environmental Factors in Design (I’m probably going to like this too)

INSTITUTIONAL SUBJECTS
I’ve taken them before but since they’re institutional, I’ll have to take them again.
ORDEV-A – Orientation and Development of Values A
ORDEV-B – Orientation and Development of Values B
ORDEV-C – Orientation and Development of Values C

DESIGN FOUNDATION SUBJECTS
I love them already! :bouncy:
COLREND – Color Theory and Rendering
COMGRAP – Computer Graphics
DESPRIN – Principles of Design
FOTOGRA – Basic and Digital Photography
FREHAND – Freehand Drawing
HARTDS2 – History of Art and Design 2
PARTDES – Philippine Design History
PROFES1 – Design Professions and Code of Ethics

MAJOR SUBJECTS
I can’t wait! :hyper:
2DANIM1 – 2D Animation 1
2DANIM2 – 2D Animation 2
2DANIM3 – 2D Animation 3
3DANIM1 – 3D Animation 1
3DANIM2 – 3D Animation 2
3DANIM3 – 3D Animation 3
AUTHOR1 – Interactive Authoring 1
AUTHOR2 – Interactive Authoring 2
AUTHOR3 – Interactive Authoring 3
CADVIS1 – Computer Aided Design Visualization 1
CADVIS2 – Computer Aided Design Visualization 2
CNCTPHO – Concept Photography
DESKPUB – Desktop Publishing
DESNCON – Design Concepts for Multimedia Arts
MMABIZ1 – Multimedia Arts Business 1
MMABIZ2 – Multimedia Arts Business 2
MMA-OJT – Multimedia Arts On the Job Training
MMPRFOL – Multimedia Arts Portfolio Production and Exhibit
MMPROJ1 – Multimedia Arts Design and Production
MMPROJ2 – Multimedia Arts Post-production and Exhibit
MSCIETY – Multimedia Arts in Society
SONDESN – Sound Design for Multimedia Arts
TECHDRW – Technical Drawing and Drafting
VIDPRD1 – Video Pre-production in Multimedia
VIDPRD2 – Video Production in Multimedia
VIDPRD3 – Video Post-production in Multimedia
WEBDEV1 – Webpage Design and Development 1
WEBDEV2 – Webpage Design and Development 2
WEBDEV3 – Webpage Design and Development 3

ELECTIVE SUBJECTS (15 units only)
ELECT-1 – Multimedia Arts Elective 1
ELECT-2 – Multimedia Arts Elective 2
ELECT-3 – Multimedia Arts Elective 3
ELECT-4 – Multimedia Arts Elective 4
ELECT-5 – Multimedia Arts Elective 5

Enrollment is on the 2nd of May. I’ve estimated my tuition fee and based on my calculations, it’d be between 30-40K. I used the freshman tuition and fees table for SY 2007-2008 – a full load of 21 units amounts to PHP 52,207.00 – hehe. It’s a good thing I’m a second degree student instead of a freshman. Not only do I have a smaller tuition, I get to arrange my schedule according to my preference. It still depends on the availability of the subjects I want to take. But if my schedule turns out the way I want it to, I’ll be able to get a full-time job. If not, a part-time job would still be great.

And speaking of school, I met my mom’s cousin’s daughter (that means she’s my cousin too right?) a few weeks ago. She studied at the school where I’ll be taking my second degree but she dropped out because she got into a big mess – a group of people set her up – I won’t go into details. It’s sad that I wasn’t able to meet her before it happened… My mom says that she’s changed a lot. She used to be so enthusiastic. Now she’s so withdrawn..even reclusive. She doesn’t seem to want to talk to anyone anymore – she used to text me before. We were both excited to meet each other. *sigh… I hope she’ll be okay…

I still hate guys. But hate is such a strong word… So that statement is not entirely true. I’m just frustrated. Love is so elusive. Well, it’s not like I’m actually looking for someone – “the one” – whatever. I’m still missing him and sometimes I just want to curl up into a ball and cry my eyes out until I can’t cry anymore or my heart is so hard that I can’t even smile. Call it self-preservation. I just don’t know how I’ll survive this heartache. I barely got out of the last one with my heart intact. (I know he‘ll tell me that I need to make a conscious decision to move on but I already know that! I just…gaaah. I’ll admit it, I don’t want to. I feel like I’m not ready.) I just felt so emotionally-bruised and drained from all that happened. I didn’t think I could trust another guy after all that drama. But then he came. I was really happy with him. I can’t imagine having another relationship as deep as the one I had with him. I felt so alive..I felt more like myself with every day that we spent together. I was able to write another poem – after THREE YEARS of being uninspired (it’s not finished though..and I probably won’t share it here, sorry). But I’m trying to move on – emphasis on trying because I don’t seem to be trying very hard. It’s just so hard to let go of someone you love so much, knowing that he loves you too.

In another place and time…
I’d hold you in my arms.
Die a little death,
feel you smile,
drown in your gaze.
One last kiss.
Farewell.
We’ll meet again.
Never to return.

Did that make sense to you? Maybe not. I know he would understand. If parallel universes do exist – and I hope they do – maybe our alternate selves are together right now, happy. As long as I believe a world like that exists – a world where the two of us would never be torn apart, I’ll be happy too. Because I have to believe that a love like ours..like the one we had..can last.

I’m sorry I can’t reply to your comments right now. I’m really tired – I just wanted to post this entry because it’s been gathering dust for quite a few days now. I cooked up a snack for my goddaughter – it involves a rolling pin, white bread, non-fat milk, bread crumbs, salami and melted cheese. Very, very, very yummy! I might post the recipe if you ask very nicely. hehe. And now I leave you with a quote from Viggo – because I’ve been gathering pictures of him for another image donation at GH AND because he’s a beautiful, beautiful man (actor, poet, musician, photographer, artist and father – he’s amazing!).

Be kind. It’s worthwhile to make an effort to learn about other people and figure out what you might have in common with them. If you allow yourself to be somewhat curious — and if you get into the habit of doing that—it’s the first step to being open minded… and realizing that your points of view aren’t totally opposite. I don’t think anyone’s are, in the end. It’s just a question of finding out by spending time with them or giving their ideas a chance to be considered.

~Viggo Mortensen, 2004

BTW, this entry is entitled Seriously! because I first started writing it after watching episode 19 of Grey’s Anatomy, Season 3.

Seriously.

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