The Earth Moved

There was an earthquake! I got all dizzy watching my desk sway from side to side. LOL. I remember the last time I “felt” an earthquake… I was having lunch at the cafeteria (12th floor) in the School of Design and Arts building (Benilde). I thought the building was going to implode.

“Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa, kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka.” ~Bob Ong

Rough translation:
“It’s not sadness or fear that makes being alone (single?) hard, it’s the fact that among the billions of people in the world, not even one fought (made an effort?) to be with you.”

I was supposed to go out with my college friends the other night but it rained so hard. I was watching the rain pour down when my sister got home. I went downstairs to keep her company while she had dinner then Chestnut decided she wanted to have dinner too — and she wouldn’t eat unless I ate too so I did..very slowly. Anyway, in line with Jess’s latest post:

Chestnut: “Keep eating, Your Royal Highness, so you won’t starve on your way home.”

That made everyone (my sister Leslee, my uncle Mao, and our housekeeper Linda) laugh.

If the rain had let up, I would’ve still gone out but I fell asleep while waiting. I hope Jen’s not too mad at me.

My sister has given me a one-month deadline to find a job — the same thing I did when she started job hunting. I asked her, “What if I don’t find a job after a month?” She said, “We’ll keep extending for 15 days at a time until you do!” LOL.

I’ve been moody all week — partly because I’m missing Jim and partly because I’m so anxious about getting a job. I need to get a job as soon as possible.

My family has been really nice. They’ve been keeping me busy — I think they’re worried that I might get depressed. The first couple of days after Jim left, my mom took me everywhere she went. LOL. I drew the line at going to the car repair service. There was no way I’d just sit there, waiting.

Then every night, when my sister comes home, we watch a movie or two.

But I still get lonely.

Today was pretty fun though. My siblings and I watched the first De La Salle Green Archers game of the UAAP, Season 71 on TV. But sadly, we lost.

I’m going to watch the Green Archers’ second game — versus the FEU Tamaraws — next Saturday with my cousin Clarenz. hehe. I told him we’d have to stay at the La Salle side or I wouldn’t go — he studies at FEU.

Ack… This post is all over the place. I’m too sleepy to concentrate.

What I really want to do right now is to go downstairs and eat ice cream. My sister bought me a tub of Choco Chip Cookie Dough this afternoon. YUM!

But I’m really sleepy… *BIG YAWN* so I’m just going to crawl under the covers and sleep. Good night everyone!

We’re going to watch Pathology tomorrow — Harvard Medical School graduate Dr. Ted Grey arrives at one of the nations most prestigious Pathology programs and is quickly noticed by the program’s privileged and elite band of pathology interns who invite him into their crowd. It is also here, where he is introduced to Dr. Jake Gallo, who brings him to a secluded wing, where he and four other indulge in their after-hours, extra-curricular activities…finding ways to commit the perfect murder!

Something To Do

“They say a person needs just three things to be truly happy in this world. Someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for.” ~Tom Bodett

It’s been hard settling back into my old routine. I miss Jim more than ever and it’s making me a bit loopy. Even Sammy is sad! Seriously. He follows me around and looks at me with sad eyes… He really liked Jim — I have a feeling that if Jim had stayed a little bit longer, Sammy would definitely like him better than me. haha.

I wish I could have introduced him to some of my friends but everyone was so busy. Hopefully, M-Rize, Jen and Paolo (at least) would be available the next time Jim comes to visit.

Speaking of friends, I’m going to see my Psych blockmates this Friday. Jen is taking care of all the details. I just really need to see my (college) friends — especially now that I’ve decided to go back to Psychology (more on this towards the end of the post). I haven’t seen them since graduation (October 2006). Gaaah! I am so glad to have finally turned 21. I think my mom has finally realized that she has to let me grow up sometime. The way my whole family has been so protective of me all these years – never letting me go anywhere unless someone drives me – really hasn’t helped my sense of direction. Imagine, I still get lost in the city I’ve lived in for the past 12 years!

I’m also planning to have lunch with Yeyers and Mica sometime next week. haha. Those two are crazy. They’ve been spreading rumors about why I went on LOA and I don’t know how many people actually believed them. I’m hoping Ice managed to save my reputation. LOL.

Hmmn… More about friends. I used to dislike social networking websites and told myself I’d never sign up for any of them but then my friends started to move away / migrate, one at a time and they badgered me to sign up so we could keep in touch (I signed up for a Friendster account for my high school friends then a Facebook account for Jazel). For the past few days, I’ve been talking to a lot of old friends, catching up. Almost all of my high school batchmates have graduated and they’re all pretty excited about working. Then just a few hours ago, I talked to a friend from elementary (on Facebook) whom I haven’t seen for 12 years and she told me that she still had these stickers I gave her back then. hahaha. I can’t believe it! And I can’t believe she still remembers me. LOL. Oh, and she told me that she’s 4 months pregnant — she’s having a baby boy.

Other exciting news! I’ve started looking for a job. I mean, I work for my dad and all but I want a “real” job with a “real” salary. LOL. I found one I like near the building where my sister works and it would be incredibly convenient if I got it. Wish me luck! I really, really want this job. Yes, that means I’m going to pursue a career in Psychology. My mom asked me, “If you could, would you go back to school?” I told her, “No. I am just so ready to start working (and I am so tired of studying).” As for art… Well, like everyone says, I’ll always have my art — wherever I am, whatever I’m doing. I’ve already packed up my art supplies and brought out my Psych books. I left a few boards and sketchpads out because I want to make something for Jim (hopefully, I’ll be able to finish something before his next visit) AND my Tito Mao (aka Tito Mao) asked me to draw his portrait.

Oh, and before I forget! I have a new hostee! Please welcome Kinza to the Midheaven Family!

Now I need to go. My cousin Clarenz is coming over in a little while (all the way from another city, about two hours away) so I can help him with his Statistics homework and I need to get some stuff done before he gets here.

I miss my Jim

“When you were around I had a sense of security in feeling that I could just pick up the telephone and talk with you. I know now that I miss you as one who has lost his sight will always miss the light. So I now feel this overwhelming sense of loss.” ~Luis Asperri, My Brother, My Executioner by F. Sionil José

I had a wonderful week with Jim. I am trying my best not to be sad.

After we dropped him off at the airport yesterday, I tried not to think about him and took a nap in the car. When we got home, I went straight to my room and wrote him an email. I missed him so much. I didn’t want to stay home so I went to church with my mom and my brother then to Shangri-La. I sat in the car, thinking about how just a few hours ago, he was right there beside me, holding my hand. When we got to Shang, I thought I saw a glimpse of him..crazy, right? I almost laughed. We met up with my sister then ate McDonald’s on the way home. Gaaah… I missed him even more. I would give anything just to be near him again.

Today was the first day I woke up knowing that I wouldn’t be able to see him, talk to him, touch him…at least not for a few months. I miss his smile, his voice, his laugh… I miss looking into his eyes… He makes me feel so at peace. I can’t remember feeling so happy…

I am hoping that the next months will fly by… I can’t wait to see him again.

*sigh…