I started writing this last night but I was so sleepy… I have some time now so I thought I’d go ahead and finish it.

The past two weeks have been really hard. So much drama. LOL. I have all these things going on with my family, friends, classmates - even pets!¹ Everyday something OR someone else adds up. It would be too depressing to blog about them all. I feel so emotionally- (and mentally-) drained.

My sister has threatened to tie me up if I don’t go back to my usual nice-though-sometimes-grumpy disposition so… In an effort to set aside these things that have been rankling me for days, I’ll blog about something that is, according to Tony Perez, “the frontier that Psychology will never conquer” (from An Author’s Notebook) — and to think that in my days as a Psychology major, we had sessions (lectures, discussions, forums, seminars, etc.) on love and relationships that went on for weeks at a time.

My sister and I have this thing… We ask each other every once in a while about the things we like and dislike about each other. I can always count on her to give me an honest answer because she knows that although I may not like her sometimes, she’d still be my favorite sister at the end of the day.² On my end, well, everyone close to me knows that I can be brutally honest.

“All too often, people have the wrong notions of what will make themselves lovable.” — I couldn’t agree more.

Before anything else, I’d like to say that I love my life and I wouldn’t trade one bit of it for anything I had in the past.

Jim asked me if I felt any older after my birthday. I told him I didn’t but I thought about it again…

I suppose I do feel older somehow. Mostly because I’ve learned more about life and how things work but also because I’ve accepted the fact that even if I’d known these things before, I probably would have made the same mistakes — which isn’t so bad because I look at who I am now and I know I’ve become a really good person.

There was a time when I felt like I wasn’t doing anything good with my life; like I had no direction whatsoever. I felt like I was just taking up space. But my attitude towards life has changed a lot since then. Young people always think they’re invincible — like they’re going to live forever — but over the years, I’ve become increasingly aware of human mortality. I like to think that I’m living the life I want, doing what I want to do, and making sure I’m doing everything necessary to accomplish my goals. But I also know that doesn’t really make me better than other people, it’s just that I try harder.