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Old Friends

Filed Under: Life, Relationships, Television, Updates by Fatima — 9 Comments
20 May 2007, Sunday

There is no friend like an old friend who has shared our morning days, no greeting like his welcome, no homage like his praise.

~Oliver Wendell Holmes, Jr.

There’s nothing like conversations with old friends…

I’ve tweaked the layout. Did you notice? hehe. What do you guys think? I was reading the comments earlier and the theme’s color scheme – actually, the whole layout – seemed so ugly to me..I just had to change it up a little. Basically I just reordered the div layers and changed the font styles. I also installed a new plugin: Name Dropper. Isn’t it spiffy? Now you can bookmark my blog EVERYWHERE! LOL. Anyway, I’ll figure out how to widgetize this theme (Letters) sometime, possibly in the near future, so I can activate the Sidebar Widgets plugin. Gaaaaah! :stressed: I’m just a bit tired of looking at all those codes. The past week was a bit…crazy. Even for my incredibly uh..weird family. :weird:

I’ll start off this blog with what happened last 16 May 2007, Wednesday. I read through ALL of my previous entries in this blog. It seemed like the past year went by in a blur. It seemed like such a short span of time. I can’t believe all the things that I wrote actually happened…and even though it seems like it was just yesterday, it feels like a lifetime away. I feel different. I guess that just goes to show how much can happen in a few months..let alone a whole year. eep! There’s a baby lizard climbing up the curtains in front of me! Waaaaah!

My Jazzy Bear (Je) is in Manila for a short visit – 2 weeks, she and her family arrived last Thursday. She fooled us all! She told us that her friend Jel was the one coming home to Manila but it turned out that she just wanted to surprise us! Anyway, I had a lovely day with her and our old high school friends. It was like a mini-reunion. I’ve really missed her…and I’m so happy because even though she’s been living in the U.S. for over four years now, she’s still the same person she was before. Okay, I know she’s changed a lot but in some ways, she’s still the old Jazel we all knew and loved. It was so great because we could still talk. I know that one of the usual scenarios when friends have been apart for a long time is that conversations become stilted. It wasn’t that way with us. I’m so glad… It’s nice to know that even though you’re all on different paths, the old bond is still there.

I joined a web directory earlier and ran across this site and the entry, Love… what about it? but I don’t really want to blog about love so I’ll just let you ponder on this quote:

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

~Neil Gaiman

It’s not that related to the post but I just wanted to share it – Neil Gaiman being one of my favorite authors and all… I was just looking for a way to squeeze it in here. ;)

My sister and I finished watching Season 3 of Grey’s Anatomy. I seriously don’t like the ending. But I’ll reserve my thoughts on this (and other GA stuff) for The Pursuit of Happiness. I’ll probably post there on Tuesday or Wednesday this coming week. I might blog about Felicity then too. We’re going to finish watching Season 4 (the last season) this week before school starts. :) New fave: I’m getting hooked on Bones. I think I’m going to start watching it regularly.

Thank you for the 21 comments! New record (again) for this blog! :hyper: I’ll return them as soon as I can. :)

Wattle, Denise, Melinda, Reema, Emma, Ai and Lucy, thank you so much! :bouncy: Simply Precious, the downtime was intermittent which was a good thing except it made updating incredibly difficult and frustrating. LOL. Plus, the forms wouldn’t work. Ugh. Thank you for the birthday greeting and for wishing me luck! :love: I really appreciate it! Fruitoaty, thank you! Yay for potato salad-lovers! ;) Amy, thank you for sharing! I loved the line: “We’ve had a leak from an alternative life and want that life now.” *grins* Oh, and thank you for the advice! I’ll definitely do that. I actually saw one of my old friends from ROTC – she shifted to MMA (I wish I’d gone ahead and shifted then too) – she still has one year of school left so I’ll be seeing her around school though we probably won’t have any classes together. Lav, the trimestral system is incredibly fast-paced. Sometimes I feel like we don’t even have enough time to breathe. You barely have time to digest a topic before another one is presented to you. But it’s still fun! And you get to finish school earlier than most people – I graduated from the university almost seven whole months before all of my high school batchmates. Yoru, aww..that’s too bad. :( But you should definitely take classes when you have the time and money..I really hope you’ll be able to someday… Besides, no one’s ever too old to learn. ;) Sarah, I can’t believe it either! Didn’t we just turn eighteen? Gaaaaah… Anyway, belated happy 20th birthday too! I hope you had a GREAT one! :love: Kimberly, LOL. I love Grey’s Anatomy too! ;) But how come you don’t like Meredith? Maybe because she’s really messed up? (But I actually think it’s one of the things that make her a lovable character) I can’t wait for Season 4 to start…September’s such a long time from now! :( Cherrie, yup! My birthday is on the 6th of May. :) Thank you! I dislike Math too. LOL. Good thing I only have Business Math. No other Math subjects for me, no siree! hehe. Anesthesia, thank you! Oh, and happy birthday to your husband! haha. I was my aunt’s birthday on May 1st then my cousin’s on the 15th. I think I also have a cousin (paternal) who has the same birthday as me. Ang, yay for another GA-lover! Thank you for the birthday greeting! You’re right, getting old feels weird. I like the haircut analogy – it’s definitely true. ;) Trixie, hihi. I’m 20-years-young. :p You, on the other hand… wahihi! I’m kidding! *huggles* You know I love ya! :love: Carla, thank you! :giggly: That was really nice to know. I’m still pretty anxious about making new friends. :stressed: Stacy, I’m actually looking forward to being busy with schoolwork. haha. Can you believe it?! I guess I just really miss school… Pat, I’ve always wondered how some people make friends so easily. It’s so hard to find true friends… I know I’m really blessed (and lucky) to have three in this lifetime. I wouldn’t trade them for anyone or anything! It’s better to have a few true friends than a whole bunch of fair-weather friends. ;)

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Seriously!

Filed Under: Anecdotage, Art, Life, School, Updates, Writing by Fatima — 20 Comments
27 April 2007, Friday

Treat everyone with kindness, even those who are rude to you, not because they are not nice but because you are nice.

~Unknown

Hmmn… So many things have happened. I don’t know where to start. :confused:

CuteNews seems to be working fine for me. I’m using it on another site. I’m not planning to switch my blog from WordPress to CuteNews so don’t worry. hehe. I love WordPress. :heart: Oh, I’ve just noticed – I’ve been getting more spam ever since I changed Transient Dreams’ privacy settings. Moonlight Reverie has been revamped. I’ve been helping Monica with 742, Epic and Legend. I’ve also been working on the Midheaven Archives, aka The Midheaven Library so please check it out when you have time. I’ve acquired some new books. I still have hundreds of books, DVDs and CDs to list though. :weird:

Aside from that, I’ve just been playing TCGs. :) I’m concentrating on The Grey Havens because the War of the Ring (it’s a monthly game at GH) is almost over. I’ve made all the donations I can make for this month (8 link buttons, 4 master badges, 18 level badges, 1 deck images donation – I still have one more to complete) and entered two of the three ongoing contests. Lookie:

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You may use the two avatars I made but please be sure to credit me. I’m still thinking about whether or not to enter the last contest (blends). I’ll have to see whether my team is ahead. hehe. I want to win! ;)

I mentioned the irresponsible/unreliable buyer in my previous post right? Well, everything worked out. I contacted the people who’ve bought stuff from me before and they’re interested in purchasing the boxsets. *whew. Plus, it looks like the people who’ve borrowed a significant (meaning HUGE) amount of money from me will be returning MOST if not all of it soon. Yay!

And about my entrance exam results… I’ve been putting off blogging because I didn’t want to jinx it. Well… I PASSED! I PASSED! I PASSED! LOL. I had a bit of a scare when I went to confirm my enrollment though. When they released my exam results, they couldn’t find my flowchart. I thought that meant that I didn’t pass but it turned out that they weren’t finished crediting my subjects. Anyway, I got my flowchart last Monday during enrollment confirmation and all of my minor subjects were credited. I still have to take a few subjects that I didn’t have in my flowchart for my BS Psychology degree but it’s all good – well, except for Business Math. I thought I’d never have to take Math again. :p haha! So here’s the list of subjects that I’ll be taking for the next..uh, two years – I think.

GENERAL EDUCATION SUBJECTS
I’m planning to take all of them in my first term. If that’s not possible, I’ll spread them out in my first two terms.
NATSCA1 – Human Factors in Design (I think I’m going to like this)
PEONEPF – Physical Fitness (gaaaah! I thought I wouldn’t have to a P.E. class again!)
BMAT2-X – Business Mathematics 2 *conducted as an extended class of 4.5 hours a week (*sigh…)
PHILOMA – Philosophy of Man (yay! I always wanted to take a Philo course. I only had Critical Thinking.)
HARTDS1 – History of Art and Design 1 (I think this is going to be interesting)
NATSCA2 – Environmental Factors in Design (I’m probably going to like this too)

INSTITUTIONAL SUBJECTS
I’ve taken them before but since they’re institutional, I’ll have to take them again.
ORDEV-A – Orientation and Development of Values A
ORDEV-B – Orientation and Development of Values B
ORDEV-C – Orientation and Development of Values C

DESIGN FOUNDATION SUBJECTS
I love them already! :bouncy:
COLREND – Color Theory and Rendering
COMGRAP – Computer Graphics
DESPRIN – Principles of Design
FOTOGRA – Basic and Digital Photography
FREHAND – Freehand Drawing
HARTDS2 – History of Art and Design 2
PARTDES – Philippine Design History
PROFES1 – Design Professions and Code of Ethics

MAJOR SUBJECTS
I can’t wait! :hyper:
2DANIM1 – 2D Animation 1
2DANIM2 – 2D Animation 2
2DANIM3 – 2D Animation 3
3DANIM1 – 3D Animation 1
3DANIM2 – 3D Animation 2
3DANIM3 – 3D Animation 3
AUTHOR1 – Interactive Authoring 1
AUTHOR2 – Interactive Authoring 2
AUTHOR3 – Interactive Authoring 3
CADVIS1 – Computer Aided Design Visualization 1
CADVIS2 – Computer Aided Design Visualization 2
CNCTPHO – Concept Photography
DESKPUB – Desktop Publishing
DESNCON – Design Concepts for Multimedia Arts
MMABIZ1 – Multimedia Arts Business 1
MMABIZ2 – Multimedia Arts Business 2
MMA-OJT – Multimedia Arts On the Job Training
MMPRFOL – Multimedia Arts Portfolio Production and Exhibit
MMPROJ1 – Multimedia Arts Design and Production
MMPROJ2 – Multimedia Arts Post-production and Exhibit
MSCIETY – Multimedia Arts in Society
SONDESN – Sound Design for Multimedia Arts
TECHDRW – Technical Drawing and Drafting
VIDPRD1 – Video Pre-production in Multimedia
VIDPRD2 – Video Production in Multimedia
VIDPRD3 – Video Post-production in Multimedia
WEBDEV1 – Webpage Design and Development 1
WEBDEV2 – Webpage Design and Development 2
WEBDEV3 – Webpage Design and Development 3

ELECTIVE SUBJECTS (15 units only)
ELECT-1 – Multimedia Arts Elective 1
ELECT-2 – Multimedia Arts Elective 2
ELECT-3 – Multimedia Arts Elective 3
ELECT-4 – Multimedia Arts Elective 4
ELECT-5 – Multimedia Arts Elective 5

Enrollment is on the 2nd of May. I’ve estimated my tuition fee and based on my calculations, it’d be between 30-40K. I used the freshman tuition and fees table for SY 2007-2008 – a full load of 21 units amounts to PHP 52,207.00 – hehe. It’s a good thing I’m a second degree student instead of a freshman. Not only do I have a smaller tuition, I get to arrange my schedule according to my preference. It still depends on the availability of the subjects I want to take. But if my schedule turns out the way I want it to, I’ll be able to get a full-time job. If not, a part-time job would still be great.

And speaking of school, I met my mom’s cousin’s daughter (that means she’s my cousin too right?) a few weeks ago. She studied at the school where I’ll be taking my second degree but she dropped out because she got into a big mess – a group of people set her up – I won’t go into details. It’s sad that I wasn’t able to meet her before it happened… My mom says that she’s changed a lot. She used to be so enthusiastic. Now she’s so withdrawn..even reclusive. She doesn’t seem to want to talk to anyone anymore – she used to text me before. We were both excited to meet each other. *sigh… I hope she’ll be okay…

I still hate guys. But hate is such a strong word… So that statement is not entirely true. I’m just frustrated. Love is so elusive. Well, it’s not like I’m actually looking for someone – “the one” – whatever. I’m still missing him and sometimes I just want to curl up into a ball and cry my eyes out until I can’t cry anymore or my heart is so hard that I can’t even smile. Call it self-preservation. I just don’t know how I’ll survive this heartache. I barely got out of the last one with my heart intact. (I know he‘ll tell me that I need to make a conscious decision to move on but I already know that! I just…gaaah. I’ll admit it, I don’t want to. I feel like I’m not ready.) I just felt so emotionally-bruised and drained from all that happened. I didn’t think I could trust another guy after all that drama. But then he came. I was really happy with him. I can’t imagine having another relationship as deep as the one I had with him. I felt so alive..I felt more like myself with every day that we spent together. I was able to write another poem – after THREE YEARS of being uninspired (it’s not finished though..and I probably won’t share it here, sorry). But I’m trying to move on – emphasis on trying because I don’t seem to be trying very hard. It’s just so hard to let go of someone you love so much, knowing that he loves you too.

In another place and time…
I’d hold you in my arms.
Die a little death,
feel you smile,
drown in your gaze.
One last kiss.
Farewell.
We’ll meet again.
Never to return.

Did that make sense to you? Maybe not. I know he would understand. If parallel universes do exist – and I hope they do – maybe our alternate selves are together right now, happy. As long as I believe a world like that exists – a world where the two of us would never be torn apart, I’ll be happy too. Because I have to believe that a love like ours..like the one we had..can last.

I’m sorry I can’t reply to your comments right now. I’m really tired – I just wanted to post this entry because it’s been gathering dust for quite a few days now. I cooked up a snack for my goddaughter – it involves a rolling pin, white bread, non-fat milk, bread crumbs, salami and melted cheese. Very, very, very yummy! I might post the recipe if you ask very nicely. hehe. And now I leave you with a quote from Viggo – because I’ve been gathering pictures of him for another image donation at GH AND because he’s a beautiful, beautiful man (actor, poet, musician, photographer, artist and father – he’s amazing!).

Be kind. It’s worthwhile to make an effort to learn about other people and figure out what you might have in common with them. If you allow yourself to be somewhat curious — and if you get into the habit of doing that—it’s the first step to being open minded… and realizing that your points of view aren’t totally opposite. I don’t think anyone’s are, in the end. It’s just a question of finding out by spending time with them or giving their ideas a chance to be considered.

~Viggo Mortensen, 2004

BTW, this entry is entitled Seriously! because I first started writing it after watching episode 19 of Grey’s Anatomy, Season 3.

Seriously.

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In that special place between the earth and sky…

Filed Under: Anecdotage, Comics, Movies, Updates by Fatima — 15 Comments
13 May 2006, Saturday

Hihi… I installed Alex King‘s Smilies plugin. I’m using the smilies from my old Greymatter blog.

I’ve been trying to contact my old dailies so I searched all the comments in my old blog and checked the commenters’ sites. I found a lot of dead links… It’s such a shame. Many of them were great web designers and had such interesting blogs. Anyway, I decided to read through my posts from the past year. I felt like I was reading someone else’s blog. I still have the same opinion on most of the things I talked about but..I didn’t recognize my voice. I guess that’s what happens when you don’t write for so long. If you’d like to read my old entries, you can find them here.

*sigh… My nine-year old cousin/goddaughter keeps reading over my shoulder. :annoyed: I keep telling her that it’s rude but she seems to think it’s funny. She only stops because she’s afraid of me. She has seen me get really angry. Hehe.. Good thing she doesn’t know that I really love kids. I try not to show it because she might become incredibly spoiled and bratty.

Okay, my siblings and I are very curious about The Lake House (starring Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock). I think I remember an old movie with a similar plot. If I remember correctly, the man and the woman exchanged letters by placing them in a bureau. The letters were sent back and forth, across centuries(?). If anyone knows this movie, please leave me a comment. I’ll be really grateful for the info. ^_^

Anyway, about The Lake House… I just can’t reconcile the fact that they’re living two years apart with the chances of them meeting each other even if they wait for each other at the exact same spot… I can’t explain it. It’s just so implausible… Although that possibility has crossed my mind before..it’s hard to digest. It gives you the idea that time overlaps. That maybe, some of the people we meet actually live in another time but not necessarily a different place. Wouldn’t that be chaotic? But then, that might explain how we can meet someone and never see them again..or run into someone everyday but never really notice them. Hmmn. :thoughtful:

I finished reading W.i.t.c.h. earlier – gaaaah! My cousin only left Issues 1-42 with me – I bought the 3 most recent issues for her but she’s still reading them – and she doesn’t have Issues 37-39. :( I want to know what happened to the Oracle! I really must find back issues of the series and start collecting them myself. And I really want to have the Cornelia & Caleb Special Issue. I guess..their story is something I can relate to. Argh! WHY didn’t I keep track of the series when I bought the first issue?!

:heart: CORNELIA & CALEB: THE BEGINNING OF A DREAM…

Cornelia:
In a soap bubble, lightly floating towards infinity. That is where I would like to be, so I wouldn’t be bound to hear a thing.
To lose myself into oblivion and to avoid regretting a fading past that, with all my being, I’d like to be my present and my future. It would almost be funny if it didn’t hurt so much, don’t you think?
To think that I, a girl with powers over earth, would dream of losing myself in nothingness.
Here I am writing the most difficult letter I’ve ever had to write, not knowing if I’d have the courage to mail it to you. That is exactly what I was missing: courage!
Do you remember our very first encounter in Meridian? There was so much sweetness in your embrace. You uttered, “You’re safe now!” I would like to hear you say those words again, with the same certainty. If only, for the last time, I could lose myself in the warmth of your embrace…

Caleb:
Cold. So cold. My body and my heart shiver from the cold. I would have never imagined I’d feel so much! I miss you and I cannot tell you. Worst of all,
I cannot tell myself.
Why, why shouldn’t I feel these emotions?
Solitude makes me feel a deaf pain that not even the things in my past can soothe.
And whenever other feelings arise, like rage, I cannot find peace and I ask myself why US, why THIS WAY, why NEVER again.
“You made that choice alone!
Nobody asked me anything.”
You told me this with tears in your eyes. Now, if only I could convince myself that I was reasonable. If only I could silence the doubts that crowd my mind. If only, for one more time,
I could lose myself in the heaven of your eyes…

*sigh…

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